Indefinite Suspension.

Big life changes occurred this past weekend and I've been trying to think of what to say about them, which is why I haven't been blogging.

This handsome man pictured with me is Chris. He's 22, a student at NKU, a server at Olive Garden, and a pretty awesome boyfriend. That's why talking about my big life changes has been so hard.

Chris and I dated for 2 years, 2 months, 1 week, and 6 days, when it comes down to it. On Friday I broke up with him. Unfortunately, it was on the phone, which I know is a major relationship foul, but whatever. I didn't mean to do it, exactly, but it happened.

It needed to happen. I have gotten to a point where I can't be in a serious relationship anymore. I was not being fair to him and I was not making him my priority. It really was not okay with me that I was treating him this way and - though he insists he was okay with it - I made the big girl decision to end things and figure out what I want and how to be in a relationship. I also don't really know anything about adult Maggie outside of the parameters of a relationship and I feel like I have to figure out who I am before I can happily and fairly function as part of a romantic unit and team.

And let me tell you something, my little raindrops, it seriously fucking sucks. Honestly, I really am not happy about this decision. It's hard. It would have been so much easier to just keep him around and let things continue, but I think he and I agree that the relationship was on its way to ending eventually. It was a hard decision to make and I know it was an even harder decision for him to have made for him.

I'm also really going to miss him. He was my boyfriend and my best friend. I told him everything and he understood my 62 track mind more quickly than anyone ever has. I have quirks and things that I'm really particular about and he got those and, more importantly, was okay with them and accommodated them. He was good to me and definitely treated me the way I think a boyfriend should treat his girlfriend. It's very sad to see the relationship end, but I know that, for now, it has to. I'm seriously going to miss him.

We are trying to remain friends. We agreed last night that we should ease into it so that we can move on and heal before cultivating our friendship again. We started as friends, so I think it can be done.

Maybe in my quest to figure out who I am, I'll realize that Chris is what I want in a lifelong relationship and maybe I can have him and that'll be great. If not, that's okay, too. Regardless, I decided last night that we are "indefinitely suspended." This means that our relationship has ended with no foreseeable end to the end, but with a chance of ending that end. It's totally circumstantial. He is okay with this definition our relationship suspended, which is good.

In short, that's why I haven't blogged. I just haven't known what to say. This was a major life change and, though it needed to happen, it was a very sad and hard one.

In other news, there's a ton of snow here. Like, seriously, a ton. I'll take a picture or two for you later.

People I'm Tired Of.

1. Lady Gaga

Seriously. I am so sick of this woman. Sure, it's totally cool that real "performance art" has completely infiltrated the spectrum of what is cool. Honestly, I say that as someone who totally supports the arts, though I'm no artist myself. But, honestly, I think it's time to make Lady Gaga go away. Seriously. Go away. I do enjoy a good synthy dance song, and hers are some of the best - the first 150 times  you hear them. I am so tired of "Bad Romance." And "Poker Face." And that one where she killed herself at the VMAs. The same beat and sounds are only interesting for so long. I think I'm so tired of her because other pop artists have started to get really outlandish in their outfits and performances, like they have to compete with Lady Gaga and didn't become famous, you know, by their own merit. I feel like this person isn't even remotely close to a real person. Besides, did I mention that I've reached the point of Lady Gaga saturation? Because I have.

2. Michael Cera

It's just not funny anymore. He's the same character in every single movie. You can't lose your virginity more times than Bristol Palin. It just doesn't work that way. Though, I will admit that his transformation into a guido was pretty amazing. But I think that's more attributed to my deep love for Jersey Shore, Snooki, and The Situation than anything else. 

3. Susan Boyle

Isn't everyone sick of this woman? 

(Photos from Google Image Search.)

Rough Week, Man.

It's been kind of a rough week. I'm not sure why, but my days haven't really started off on the exactly right foot.

Monday I had that midterm. I got a 72% on it. Not good. Monday was also Lady's birthday, so we just hung out at home that night. I did get Little Big Planet for the PS3 and it is the most adorable game in the world, but that might not necessarily mean much.

Then on Tuesday, as you'll recall, I had to wake up early to register for classes. I didn't sleep so well either, so after I went to back to bed, I suddenly woke up at 7:50 - and I have to be up by 7:15 on Tuesdays - and panicked. TimTim wasn't too worried about it though. I guess he overslept, too. Then that day instead of going to Intro to Linguistics, I wrote that novel of a cell phone blog. THEN I did my Intro to Rhetorical Theory homework, and almost didn't finish it. When we covered it in class, I learned that I'm pretty sure that I got everything wrong. So that's sucktastic.

Then yesterday, Wednesday, I overslept and totally missed my first class. Just don't tell Lady, she gets all judgey. I was late to my only other class, too. *sigh* Suck. And I went back to work after 10 days off. Which was laaaaaame.

Before I tell you about this morning, I should let you know that on Thursday mornings, I come with my mom to school because she and I both have an 8 am class. Hers is Tuesday and Thursday, mine is only Thursday. I have to be up at 6 am to leave at 6:25 am and she likes to stop at McDonald's - which I think is kind of gross - so I get a large Diet Coke and cookies and it's usually an amazing way to start my morning.

Except this morning. This morning my bang braid wouldn't cooperate so I was running out the door at 6:26 - and Lady gets mad if I'm one minute late. So she was a minute's worth of mad. A minute's worth of mad usually lasts about 3 minutes. 10 minutes worth of mad lasts until noon. So, as usual, we stopped at McDonald's and, since I only get cookies and Diet Coke, I drove to school. And as I took the first sip from my super full, super cold Diet Coke, the whole thing spilled down the front. It wouldn't have been so bad, if the sweatshirt I'm wearing today hadn't been white. But it is. It's the black and white UC hoodie from Victoria's Secret Pink Collegiate Collection. (Have you figured out where I work yet?) So now I have brown pop splattered all down my front and I look like a slob. I bought a Tide Stain Pen thing but that only helped a little.

Today's hoodie.

(Photo Credit: vspink.com)

I really hope today gets better.

How has your week been?
P.S. Lady = my mom. TimTim/Timmy/Tim/Timiny Cricket/Timkerbelle = my dad.

Summer School?

Oh, summer school. I've never taken summer school before but now I think I have to. My Anthropology advisor told me that one of my freshman pre-reqs is going to be offered sequentially over the summer, so I have to take at least two summer school sessions. I'm not looking forward to it. I don't know if I'm going to be able to deal so well. This should be interesting.

Little raindrops, how do you deal with summer school? Have any tips for me?

The Great Cell Phone Dilemma of 2010

Sitting in my mom's office before class. Totally not motivated to go. Let's look at smartphones instead.

This is what I currently have: Verizon Wireless BlackBerry Curve 8330. I got it in May of 2008. It's pretty awesome. I abused it so I've had several replacements. (Thank goodness for phone insurance.) I am not a huge fan of the BlackBerry web browser. I was told to try OperaMini. I did. I hated it. The browser made for BlackBerry, though it can be severely limited by its own constraints, is useable. I like the QWERTY keyboard. Believe it or not, it was my first full QWERTY and that was a big part of why I got it. The trackball is pretty sweet until it gets something stuck in it. I dropped my phone (read: threw it across the room accidentally) pretty hard the other day and it won't scroll to the right. Suck. (Threw it across the room = I went to gently toss it into my other hand and totally missed and it flew away.)

I am up for upgrade by the end of March. I don't want to leave Verizon Wireless. While they are a little up there in price, I think you get what you pay for. I have service and pretty speedy internet access almost everywhere I go. The only places coverage is spotty is in all of Rievschl Hall (a building with thick concrete walls), Old Chem 601, and the break room at work. Don't ask why. I definitely want an upgrade. I really like HTC and the Android OS. I would, however, be willing to look at other phones.

This is what I really want: the Google Nexus One by HTC. I've read that it's a little buggy, and I definitely know better than to get the first gen anything, but holy moly, it's sexy. Unfortunately, it only operates on GSM right now, so it's not available. Google says on their site that the Nexus One will be available in CDMA format - meaning for Verizon Wireless - in Spring 2010. I'm hoping beyond hope "Spring 2010" means before March 26, which is when my contract dies.

Wait, wait, wait. Snookie is a size 3? Really? I don't believe it. Anyway...

This is what I'll most likely end up getting: the HTC Droid Eris. It's Verizon's version of the HTC Hero and it seems like a pretty decent phone. It's slim, which is actually most important to me. Pocketability is key. It's got HTC's Sense UI, which really gets me jazzed. It has some buttons, which I like. It's not Bluetooth capable, but if you use a Bluetooth ear piece you look like a douchenozzle anyway, so that's a nonissue. It allows for customization, which is great for me because I'm super particular. It does only operate on Android 1.5, but the upgrade for 2.x is expected in Q1 and I've heard specifically March. Plus, all Eris users will be able to get the upgrade. Plus, it's super inexpenisve, and with the $30 extra a month I pay for unlimited data, low purchase price is a major plus. It's a slimmed down version of the Motorola Droid, but that's okay because why would I get something that is more than I need?

The Motorola Droid is an option, but only maybe. It's got the slidey outey QWERTY, but that also makes for a pretty bricky phone. Do I need another brick? No. Plus, I've never had good luck with Motorola phones. I had a MOTO SLVR. Remember those pieces of crap? Ugh. I think the Motorola Droid may be too much phone.

I could go for the new BlackBerry Curve 8530 with a track pad instead of a trackball, but I'm not sure if I want another BlackBerry.

Verizon's Palm Pre Plus is an option. I dont' know much about this phone, but I've heard good things. This is defnitely one I have to go  fiddle with before I make my final decision. I don't like the Palm Pixi Plus, so I'm not even going to show you.

I'm really fretting over this decision. I'm not sure what I want to do or what I want to get. I know that Verizon is having a Buy a Droid Phone, Get an Eris deal, so my mom, whose contract ends a week after mine, wants to upgrade at the same time as me and split the cost. It would mean I wouldn't have the coolest phone in the house, but it would alleviate the cost a little and that's always good. They're also having a Buy a Palm, Get a Palm Pixi Free deal. So if I go that route, she'd get the Pixi.

What do you think I should do, little rain drops? Is there a phone you like better?

Isn't That Something?

For the first time ever, I've woken up at 6am to schedule for classes. Now instead of scrambling to get a schedule together - which I've always managed to do - at the beginning of the quarter, I'm securely in all the classes I need to be in. Isn't that something?

Really, I wanted to let you guys know that my brother wakes up to the classical music station in the morning. Classical music automatically makes me think of Panera Bread. So, really, sleeping in my room at 6am every morning is like sleeping in a Panera Bread. Did I mention he blasts it?

Study, You Slacker.

This morning I had midterm in Cultural Anthropology. I can't believe that it's suddenly week 5 and I'm halfway through the quarter. My midterms started last week on Thursday, so I have no idea how I did on them.

My Intro to Linguistics midterm was Thursday morning. I prepped by making a zillion flashcards. Flashcards seem to work for me, I dunno, I think it helps me to write everything out. I think I did okay on it, though, so that's good. I know I missed a few things, but not so much as to seriously detriment my grade. I hope.

Math was Friday. I didn't really study for that. I mean, I looked over it and everything, but I've never known how study for math. Somehow, I've gotten through sixteen or so years of schooling having never really studied for a math test. Does anyone know how to study for math? Ergh. It's no good.

Then Cultural was this morning. Holy. Crap. I should have studied. It's not hard material, I know that, and had I made flashcards I would have been fine fine fine, but I didn't, so it sucked. Oh well. I think I did C-ish. Not awesome, not awful. I'll let you know, though.

On the personal front, things have been slow. I've worked maybe one shift in two weeks. My last check was $140 and I know this next one is going to be even less. Not to mention the fact that I get paid every two weeks, so that's $140 for two weeks worth of work. Does anyone else think that sucks? Because I do. I really do. On Saturday I took Mimi to Kentucky to get a new puppy. She decided her dog, Jake, needed a sister, so I found one on CraigsList. Her name is Mannie and she's the cutest, sweetest dog ever. She did, however, get carsick three times on the way home, making an easy hour and a half drive an arduous 3 hour drive. And since Mimi is on oxygen, I did all of it. It was a trying day.

I'd say that I'm going to go study or do homework, but that would be a lie. Instead, I'm off to take a shower, come up with what classes I need to register for tomorrow (at 5:30am) and watch my Monday night television. Monday is my favorite day for TV. It's when all the good shows are on. Basically, at the end of my first real entry in my dealing with college blog, I'm letting you all know that I'm gonna be a slacker tonight. Awesome.